Sometime, you gotta be a big girl, and hold back the tears...

When you hold something heavy.. you want someone who would be willing enough to help you lighten you burden, but when no one shows up to help... you feel abandoned. No ones gonna give you the help you need. There is really no one who can hold and feel the same weight you hold. God is here to tell you your wrong, and their is someone who can carry it for you. Sometimes I wish I can get straight to answer when the question is asked, but it took Jesus the painful question of "God, is their another way to save these people?" when he prayed, and cried the day before he was going to die.... and there wasn't another way. So he died, and rose again on the third day, offering us eternal life with him in heaven. So the question asks: "Is there another way around the pain?" and the answer is, "no, you have to endure the rain to get the rainbow." theres something a lot bigger up ahead. Its on the other side of the mountian. You gotta climb and have faith, to reach the other side.
How does that actually work?
well, Thats What Faith Can Do...<3
Just Believe..

Merry Christmas:)

"He loves us, ohh how he loves us."
He loves. Me.
Why? I don't understand. Why me? I thought he died for them.
But not for Me.
Although in the mist of my doubt, he came for me. He came for us.
He came asking nothing in return from me. Didn't ask to come, just
came. As A baby, this powerful God, the author of everything. Kinda like
a book. We are a book. And hes writing the pages. We don't know whats
coming next, but he does.
And all that, came from this baby.
Merry Christmas <3



*****UPDATE 12/25/2009*******
((((Btw, I wrote the above three days ago.. so now I'm writing this)))
Oh... holy..
Ok, this is an interesting twist from what I just said,
but now I.. I don't know anymore. I don't know Matthew anymore.
Hey hes amazing now that he opened up to me more, but..
I don't know. Should I trust him with this? I don't want to watch him
crash and burn, but I don't want to push him away ether...
Hes playing with fire. And theres nothing I can do about it.
God please give me Strength!

-Mich<3

DISTRICT 9 :)

Watched district 9 yesterday night, and I'm watching it again right now with my dad ^_^ such a good movie. Terrible, terrible graphics though. :P lol I love that guys accent xD so awesome ^_^
so anyways, gonna have sleep over later at Marsella's house :D wooooot! :)) thats gonna be super fun :) Ummmm... oh! at church today, Gavin's Grandma was talking to Kaia (thats how u spll it right?), haha! and she asked where he was, and Kaia told her he was over there (like a few feet away from us), and I was like,"YEA, GO GIVE EM A WOOPIN!" HAHAHAHAHA! everyone started cracking up I COULDN'T BREATH! xD it was so funny! you shoulda seen Jen's face xD HAHAHAHA! wow so funny. ;)

To My Dear Friend Michele <3

hahaha! I have thirty7 posts! hehehehe.. this is thirty 8:) I am so excited for tonight! I love ice skating!!! AND STARBUCKS!! hhehehe:) I like saying hehehe :D haha! it makes me sound mischievous (which most of the time I am ;] ). Weeirdddoo.. B-] idk im bouncy today:J omg I was cleaning the house today (because we're having a xmas party fri.), and I was listening to my ipodd, and I found the old singer I used to listen to (Krystal Meyers). :) it brought back some of the cutest memories. I miss Michele honestly. lol idk why, but I do. Looking back on that old music reminded me of her, when I used to hang out/talk with her. Hehe.. awww it was so sweet. She was always so gracious and patient with me. Considering i was in 6th grade (which was probably the worst year of everyones life), It surprises me she still choose to talk to me, even in my weird moments. :P hehe, I <3 u Michele. Even if she doesn't really care/remember any of the times we spent together, that's ok, cause I still remember <3

Love,
miCH

wow "I Gotta Feeling" is stuck in my head. UGH!

Make It Stop! lol :S

Why are you doing this to me?
Always looking into my eyes;
Getting me weak in the knees.
Why do you intise me so?
Why can't you just let me go?
didn't you ever know?

I'm taken by,
a lover that never lies,
A hope that never dies,
A fire that burns inside,
never burning away,

you are my lover today

So what did you expect?
So sorry I had to reject,
I got bigger plans in life,
then to let you waste my time,

So don't try to convince me, don't even bother.
I already made up my mind,
I have my eyes set on the father.
Eyes set on the father. hey

Im takin by,
A lover that never lies,
A hope that never dies,
A fire that burns inside,
never burning away,

you are my lover today
Ohhh.. you are my lover today. <3







Grrrr... Do you ever feel like your on a spinning wheel. Those spinney things that you stand on, and someone spins you around in circles? I feel like that right now. Ughh... :// Pray I keep my eyes on the Lord, so that I don't get overwhelmed...
Deep Breath,
keep going <3
:J



-miCH <3

I Wanna Reverse This Tragedy!

this is like the 18th time I've played "Mess of Me by Switchfoot" xD
I LUUUVV THAT SONNGGG<3

"I've made a mess of me! I wanna get back the rest of me!
I've made a mess of me! I wanna spend the rest of my life alive!
I've made a mess of me, I wanna reverse this tragedy!
I've made a mess of me, I wanna spend the rest of my life ALIVE!" <3

Ok so facebook...

Is driving me crazy, and sooo me and Jennalee (the Awesomest PersonEVER) are gonna stay off FB till Fri. at 3:00pm (is that the plan?). Hehe, i still need a reply from her so, anyways, we r gunna read our bibles, instead of being lazy couch potatos, and get our buttz OFFthe computer xD hehehehe ;) love u guyz, talk 2 you soon!

-mICH

What is love to me? <3

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Facebook has drugged meh..bleh..

Ughhh.. tired.
I think facebook has drugged me into going
online every second of the day :( lol I think im
gonna stay off for a while. :J but thankfully (because I
know how much u guys love me [[HAHA! jk JK]] )
hehe, im gonna be on my blog :) Right nooww im uploading
pix from the 6th to 8th grade girl party (no haterz, haha! I was
just to lazy to put them up, gimme a break ;J),
annnddd, they look SOOOOO cutee:) go check em out!


:)

LuV..

mICH-

Broken Heart

In this moment synchronized inside, words that paint a legacy of life
A different picture will unfold, a healing finds it's way through
Sifted times I take another breath, with an ambiance of nothing left
So heal my heart rain down your love, these waters bring me back to life..

Father, healer deliver me from broken love
Stay here, closer let me hear your voice of love

There's a healing calling from the wind, there's a healer waiting to begin
In timeless places, traced and faceless will I learn to let go
Take me to the heights where love controls,
far away from home but feels so close
This empty heart of mine will fall inside and bring me back to life

You can hold, you can mend
You can heal, you can break
I hold cause something etched this way

Father.. healer.. deliver me form broken love..
Stay here, closer.. let me hear your voice of love..
Savior, Redeemer.. bring me to this place of peace..
Jesus, garden.. my broken heart is so in need

Wouldn't you like to know?

What people might think of you sometimes? Whats going threw their heads when they talk to you? haha! you can only imagine. When you do something incredibly stupid, all you think about, is what people might have thought about it. Sometimes though, its safer to let them think their way, so you don't have to change yours (way of acting). I was just thinking.. Isn't funny how we try and guess what they might be thinking, but most people (I know anway) don't exactly find the faults you find in yourself. idk its weird. haha! its funny how that works. We look at ourselves as ugly, or stupid sometimes, but not everybody can see the same way you do, because you can see your flaws, they can't (at least don't try to).

tehe :) 2 words of the day,
-Beautiful You-
your beautiful.

You just don't know it yet. <3
-Mich

oh no..

Cut my hair!! :D ahhhhh! I <3 it :)

wow ok were do i start...
you know when God gives u trials, and most of the time you fail? Hahaha!
idk but I think i won B-D hahaha! ;)
"I eat nazi zombies for breakfast" ;D omg inside jokes are fun. xD
but omg I have a situation.. (I know random)
now things are screwd up again...:(
ughh.. tell u more later

-mich

True Love <3

~True Love~

Come close listen to the story
about a love more faithful than the morning
The Father gave his only Son just to save us

The earth was shaking in the dark
All creation felt the Fathers broken heart
tears were filling heaven's eyes
The day that true love died, the day that true love died
When blood and water hit the ground
Walls we couldn't move came crashing down
We were free and made alive
The day that true love died, The day that true love died

Search your heart you know you can't deny it
Come on, lose your life just so you can find it
The Father gave his only
son just to save us

Jesus is alive
Oh, He is alive
He rose again

When blood and water hit the ground
Walls we couldn't move came crashing down
We were free and made alive
The day that true love died, The day that true love died

Come close listen to the story ...

One Chance. One Choice. One Moment. Take It!

Ahhhh... where do I start? I had quite an experience this weekend. I realized the reality of the power of worship. Its incredible; its so incredible, its hard to describe.

I saw the reality of the pain in childrens hearts, no younger then me.

I heard parables, in ways completely applied to my life.

I lived threw the feeling of being Alone and then found.

I learned the power of service; to heal, build, or lift up a person hurting, or in need.

I fellowshiped, with girls who needed someone to say "Jesus Loves You"

Lastly...

I Recognizied that even though I might not feel God spirtually Change my broken heart,
What I had learned if I applied it, was going to be the Change I was looking for...

We need to take the chance to change our ways. We only have one! when you see it TAKE IT! God promises you wont forget it. One Choice we have to make that chance a reality! One Moment with the father! thats all you need people! :) JUST ONE!

Jesus gave his life, for his love... (us)
Just remember, and tell others that Jesus Christ Loves Them! God's love and mercy is like a hurricane, and we are the trees bending in the wind. <3

P.S if you get the chance, listen to this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmbM_EuqvOg love ya ;)

- Mich

Convention:)

Hung out with hannerz today :)) took amazing pix! <3 It was so fun, we went to birch street in brea, and it was amazing there! haha! they have this rooftop, were we took most of the pictures (u can see em on facebook). Luv Luv LLUVV my bestie:)

So anyways, I am almost done with selling! :)) as most of you already know, I have been selling candy n stuff around (believe it or not, its really fun :D), haha! and Ive already been to Hannah M. and Megan L. :) they bought my candy. ;D so hopefully I can go to the convention:) wooooooottt!
Plez Pray! <3

p.s does anybody reccomend any bookz of the biblee?? :D

NEW MOON

Went to go see New Moon with my bestie todaaayyyy:) Omg people...dare I say it...but, New Moon kinda sucked. haha! I honestly am not really a sappy kinda person, i mean, at times I am, just not threw out the whole entire movie. ;P I like some action to be involved, not a mad obsession. :P like the whole times, she was just freaking out over the fact he left her (haha! im giving it away, so CLOSE YOUR EYES!), and hes not even that cute! JACOB WAS MORE CUTE! It was so hot, when he turned into a wolf. bahahaha!! BUT WOW she is such a butthead, she DUMPED HIM, FOR STUPID EDWARD!!! UGHHH!! I love the whole vampire love thing, but that was so mean. Its just that Robert Pattonson, IS NOT CUTE (but hes not ugly ether ;P). I liked the story tho, it was really cool, just it disspointed me, when they fought with the vultori (if thats how u spell it), it was the lamest fight I ever saw. >:P over all, I give New Moon a 4/5

p.s OMG! Edward askes Bella to marry him! xD

Life! <3

Life. It goes so fast! sometimes I can't keep up! lol But I'm not going in it alone. :J Ahhhh!! I could never! haha! just gotta put my trust in him. Even when things seem super hard. Haha! lesson of the day ;) Ooooo! I am memorizing Proverbs 31:10-31 so pray for me, because I need to have it down by Thanksgiving, cuz I am gonna say it to my mom <3 shes the best:D I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

haha!
hugs*
Luv Ya!

--
<3 Mich

Reading Sleeply? :P

I love the night!!! that's were I rest from an EXHAUSTING DAY! :P love you guys <3

P.S I need more books to read!! :D <3
RANDOM! but I love reading!

Seven Oaks

Ahhhhh!! Seven Oaks was outstanding! I had so
much fun! :D we caught a fish! I took so many
pictures! :D it was so much fun! It felt like years tho
to tell you the truth. haha! It was soo longgg, but I
enjoyed the peace, and quite. :) There was a creek
right next to our cabin, so every time you went out
to the patio, you could hear the water rusling. I sat
there and listening. It was soo beautiful. I regret not
being able to read my bible there. :/ Bahaha:) that
was fun:) Ooooo, and heres a pic of me on the patio:)

Don't Be Afraid..

I'm home. seems the world is different around me. Everything just.. doesn't feel right. I don't know why.. Anyways, I was surprised to know how much Big bear is in poverty. I was sitting on a bench just out side of a store we were in, and I saw I girl walk by me, and she looked so sad. She was listening to her headphones, and walked towards a beat up car, to a man (her dad I assume). Across from me, were some lady's around mid 40's or so, and they were cursing, and talking about political matters. I wanted to go to them, and tell them Jesus loves them, but .. I couldn't find a way to. I was afraid. It ate me inside, to know, that these people can die, and suffer Hell, because I was Afraid to tell them the truth. It was so convicting, and I pray, I never make that mistake again.

We live in such a broken world, and we don't realize how broken it really is. :/ ughhh.. it breaks my heart! :( I prayed for those people that night. I hoped God would reach them some way..
Do you know anyone like that?
Pray for them,
they might need you, and you can help.
Don't be Afraid.

CAMPING! <3

Heeeyy!
I am so excited! I am going camping soon! I cant wait! :D
pray I'll have a safe trip with my fam! <3
I love you guys! and I'll keep you all in my prayers while im there.

Play nice! ;P tehe<3

Mich-
P.S I'll be back Sat night! (haha! just for the day:) )

Best Friends <3

My best friend told me she felt alone, and sad today.
It reminded me of our friendship, and all of my
wonderful friends. I just wanna let you know,

When you cry, I can be your shoulder to cry on.
When no one will talk to you, talk to me.
When you don't wanna face it alone, face it with me.
I am here:)

To All My Best Friends, Whom I'm Thankful for, and I
love you guys.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2fHFDtP1TM <3

this doesn't apply to everybody, because I don't know
all of you that well. But don't think I don't want to
get to know you ether. :) Talk to me ;) I'll listen to
you, don't be shy!

-- Mich

Mondayzzz...:(

Wow! its monday all over again!!!

hallloween was amazing! check out facebook for pics of
meh and Marsella after the pumpkin bash, at BEST BUY! ;D
listening to radio disney right now, which is weird, cuz thats
so not me. xD haha! idk, the fish had boring music. Ummmmm..
doing school (kinda) so not loving it. :((( ughhh!! I got so much work
for starr, its not even funny x(
ttyl! :D

<3's

Mickey! :D

God is Good!!

God really spoke to me tonight!!! yay! Pray tho! Pleasee!! that's all I need! (besides my precious Lord and Savior!) Pray that I will not turn my back on him, ever, ever, ever!
And always turn back to him. Ughhh! I need to stop fighting him, its like that one song,"If I Had Two Hands." It talks about trying to hold on to God in one hand, and with the other, you push him away. So ya! that would be my request for this week:) Oh!! btw, for my fellow church buddies, How did youth group today? was it boring? fun? weird? haha! let me know<3

Shelly

And just when it couldn't get worse

...........IT DID. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! SOMEBODY HELP ME! :( I don't wanna deal with anymore of this crap! :(

Here We Go...

God is so gooood to me, and I take it for granted:/ Ughh. ... I need to stop doing that. OMG tomorrow is Wednesday. Welcome to HELL xD hahaha! nahhhh it probably wont be that bad tomorrow...idk we will seeee:) I'll keep you guys posted. Well... let the fun began. Wish me luck!!

P.S AHHHHH I NEVR NOTICED TAYLOR LAUTNERS HOTNESS!!! xD

Church! :D

Going to church! my baby brother and sister are gonna be dedicated today! :D yay! Ohhhh! and please pray for me, because Wednesday will be my hell. lol not even kidding, it will be insane, soooooo! plz plz plz pray 4 me! <3 loveya guys

-Mac ;)

I Need You!!

I feel Safe in your arms. The World cant touch me. Don't Let Me Go..

Hacker?

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i think someone hacked my facebook, because my friend sent me a response
back to an email i never sent, soooooo... thats really weird. O.o anyways, today was fun, we went to chik-fil-a lol it honestly kinda sucked .. soo I was kinda bummed :/ Oh! and I'm also gonna cutz my hair tomorrow, and I wanna change my hairstyle a little and try something new, but im kinda afraid, cuz what happens if the girl srews up? lol Ahhhh!! I don't want to live with that hair for a month or something. lol:/ so idk, I wanted this hair cut tho, what do ya guys think? :D

http://www4.pictures.zimbio.com/img/5519/Alicia/640l.jpg

A Walk To Remember

Today was interesting.. not at all how I thought it would be.
(I am going to write what happened as if it were in a book, just 4 fun :D) btw, only true bookworms can read all this, so... good luck! :P

"I can't take you," my mom said uncomfortably. "Who's going to watch Johnny and Hannah?
I cant leave them by themselves!" I pondered for a bit, and wondered if some friends could take me. For what felt like forever, I sat there thinking. Finally, I came to the conclusion, that most
likely, that can't happen. Disappointed I went to my desk, and sat down. Randomly, I found myself thinking about everything that was weighing on me, and was pulling me down. School, drama, boys, was a some of the things I was wrestling with. I sadly turned on some music, and a certain song came on; Again by Flyleaf. I could hear God speaking threw those words to me, it was indescribable. He said,"What happened to you and me?" The words sunk in deep. It felt like I saw God at a distance, and I wanted to run to him, and cry in his arms. I told my mom I was going for a walk, and I went out the door, with my dog Jack at my side. It felt like I could feel God with me.. it was amazing. I never wanted to leave his side again. I ran as fast as I could. I felt so free, like there was no more weight, weighing me down. When I ran out of breath,
I sat down on the cement, and looked up at the stars. To my surprise, I saw a single star, that was so bright, it reminded me of the star, that the wise men followed to see Jesus. I thought for a second,"Jesus came to die, for a broken world.. He came to die, for a broken me." It hit me. Happiness is how I feel when someone says they cares about me, but that happiness eventually dies out. Joy is a God given feeling, that can not die out, or be given away. <3 That is my Walk To Remember...
Whats yours? :)

Butterfly Feelings<3

He gave her 13 roses, and 1 was fake. He said,"I'll love you till the last rose dies." <3

haha! this is incredibly cute! I was singing it outside<3 tehe:)

David Archuleta-

Crush<3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yff9nCctMkg

!Friday & Saturday!

Well todaay is Fri. anddd it was crazy school day 4 me :/
but I'd rather have that, then to repeat my week over again.
haha! I feel like im the only girl who loves video games. lol :P
that was so random, but Ive been in a crazy mood today, so
haha I had some fun:] Ummmmm, so what do you do on a blog anyways?
haha Hiii peeeopplee:) lol Ohhh! We went to Golden Spoon yesterday,
ans it was amaazzziinggg! oh and their new pumpkin pie yogurt... wow
better then you think. :D kk well all I got 4 now.. :P talk to ya later!

-Mich

Hey Guess What!!!

wish me luck in school :P

Me :]

Heya, its Shelly. :]
I am 13TEEN! (BOOYA!) ;] I <3 my friends and my Fam. My fave color is navy blue and I love music, I am a really crazy girl ((( seriously ask all my bffz. ;] ))) but I can be really serious at times, if I wanted to. People will call me a tomboy, or girly girl, but call me what you want, I am still just me. I love life, even if there's consequence. But with the consequences, God made me who I am now, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I act kinda outrageous sometimes, so if I'm too crazy for you, too bad. ;] I am really daring, and I love to do things outta the ordinary. Being me, is the most funnest thing in the world, try it. :] <3

"Yet I am weak, my life you care for and seek. Though I am young, you look at me, and I stand out from everyone. Yet I am poor, you still invite me to your royal throne. Though I fear, you cover me with your wings and say, I am here" -♏¡chεℓℓє Q One thing you should know about me, is that I don't give up. Its been two years now, and I am still standing tall <3 I am always deep in thought. Its just the way God made me. When I look at life, I see an adventure waiting to happen; I wanna explore the unknown behind, what we knew. I always will expect the unexpected. Fight for what is right, and always remember... When I feel all Alone.. Ill remember...God is with me.