Sometime, you gotta be a big girl, and hold back the tears...

When you hold something heavy.. you want someone who would be willing enough to help you lighten you burden, but when no one shows up to help... you feel abandoned. No ones gonna give you the help you need. There is really no one who can hold and feel the same weight you hold. God is here to tell you your wrong, and their is someone who can carry it for you. Sometimes I wish I can get straight to answer when the question is asked, but it took Jesus the painful question of "God, is their another way to save these people?" when he prayed, and cried the day before he was going to die.... and there wasn't another way. So he died, and rose again on the third day, offering us eternal life with him in heaven. So the question asks: "Is there another way around the pain?" and the answer is, "no, you have to endure the rain to get the rainbow." theres something a lot bigger up ahead. Its on the other side of the mountian. You gotta climb and have faith, to reach the other side.
How does that actually work?
well, Thats What Faith Can Do...<3
Just Believe..

Merry Christmas:)

"He loves us, ohh how he loves us."
He loves. Me.
Why? I don't understand. Why me? I thought he died for them.
But not for Me.
Although in the mist of my doubt, he came for me. He came for us.
He came asking nothing in return from me. Didn't ask to come, just
came. As A baby, this powerful God, the author of everything. Kinda like
a book. We are a book. And hes writing the pages. We don't know whats
coming next, but he does.
And all that, came from this baby.
Merry Christmas <3



*****UPDATE 12/25/2009*******
((((Btw, I wrote the above three days ago.. so now I'm writing this)))
Oh... holy..
Ok, this is an interesting twist from what I just said,
but now I.. I don't know anymore. I don't know Matthew anymore.
Hey hes amazing now that he opened up to me more, but..
I don't know. Should I trust him with this? I don't want to watch him
crash and burn, but I don't want to push him away ether...
Hes playing with fire. And theres nothing I can do about it.
God please give me Strength!

-Mich<3

DISTRICT 9 :)

Watched district 9 yesterday night, and I'm watching it again right now with my dad ^_^ such a good movie. Terrible, terrible graphics though. :P lol I love that guys accent xD so awesome ^_^
so anyways, gonna have sleep over later at Marsella's house :D wooooot! :)) thats gonna be super fun :) Ummmm... oh! at church today, Gavin's Grandma was talking to Kaia (thats how u spll it right?), haha! and she asked where he was, and Kaia told her he was over there (like a few feet away from us), and I was like,"YEA, GO GIVE EM A WOOPIN!" HAHAHAHAHA! everyone started cracking up I COULDN'T BREATH! xD it was so funny! you shoulda seen Jen's face xD HAHAHAHA! wow so funny. ;)

To My Dear Friend Michele <3

hahaha! I have thirty7 posts! hehehehe.. this is thirty 8:) I am so excited for tonight! I love ice skating!!! AND STARBUCKS!! hhehehe:) I like saying hehehe :D haha! it makes me sound mischievous (which most of the time I am ;] ). Weeirdddoo.. B-] idk im bouncy today:J omg I was cleaning the house today (because we're having a xmas party fri.), and I was listening to my ipodd, and I found the old singer I used to listen to (Krystal Meyers). :) it brought back some of the cutest memories. I miss Michele honestly. lol idk why, but I do. Looking back on that old music reminded me of her, when I used to hang out/talk with her. Hehe.. awww it was so sweet. She was always so gracious and patient with me. Considering i was in 6th grade (which was probably the worst year of everyones life), It surprises me she still choose to talk to me, even in my weird moments. :P hehe, I <3 u Michele. Even if she doesn't really care/remember any of the times we spent together, that's ok, cause I still remember <3

Love,
miCH

wow "I Gotta Feeling" is stuck in my head. UGH!

Make It Stop! lol :S

Why are you doing this to me?
Always looking into my eyes;
Getting me weak in the knees.
Why do you intise me so?
Why can't you just let me go?
didn't you ever know?

I'm taken by,
a lover that never lies,
A hope that never dies,
A fire that burns inside,
never burning away,

you are my lover today

So what did you expect?
So sorry I had to reject,
I got bigger plans in life,
then to let you waste my time,

So don't try to convince me, don't even bother.
I already made up my mind,
I have my eyes set on the father.
Eyes set on the father. hey

Im takin by,
A lover that never lies,
A hope that never dies,
A fire that burns inside,
never burning away,

you are my lover today
Ohhh.. you are my lover today. <3







Grrrr... Do you ever feel like your on a spinning wheel. Those spinney things that you stand on, and someone spins you around in circles? I feel like that right now. Ughh... :// Pray I keep my eyes on the Lord, so that I don't get overwhelmed...
Deep Breath,
keep going <3
:J



-miCH <3

I Wanna Reverse This Tragedy!

this is like the 18th time I've played "Mess of Me by Switchfoot" xD
I LUUUVV THAT SONNGGG<3

"I've made a mess of me! I wanna get back the rest of me!
I've made a mess of me! I wanna spend the rest of my life alive!
I've made a mess of me, I wanna reverse this tragedy!
I've made a mess of me, I wanna spend the rest of my life ALIVE!" <3

Ok so facebook...

Is driving me crazy, and sooo me and Jennalee (the Awesomest PersonEVER) are gonna stay off FB till Fri. at 3:00pm (is that the plan?). Hehe, i still need a reply from her so, anyways, we r gunna read our bibles, instead of being lazy couch potatos, and get our buttz OFFthe computer xD hehehehe ;) love u guyz, talk 2 you soon!

-mICH

What is love to me? <3

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Facebook has drugged meh..bleh..

Ughhh.. tired.
I think facebook has drugged me into going
online every second of the day :( lol I think im
gonna stay off for a while. :J but thankfully (because I
know how much u guys love me [[HAHA! jk JK]] )
hehe, im gonna be on my blog :) Right nooww im uploading
pix from the 6th to 8th grade girl party (no haterz, haha! I was
just to lazy to put them up, gimme a break ;J),
annnddd, they look SOOOOO cutee:) go check em out!


:)

LuV..

mICH-

Broken Heart

In this moment synchronized inside, words that paint a legacy of life
A different picture will unfold, a healing finds it's way through
Sifted times I take another breath, with an ambiance of nothing left
So heal my heart rain down your love, these waters bring me back to life..

Father, healer deliver me from broken love
Stay here, closer let me hear your voice of love

There's a healing calling from the wind, there's a healer waiting to begin
In timeless places, traced and faceless will I learn to let go
Take me to the heights where love controls,
far away from home but feels so close
This empty heart of mine will fall inside and bring me back to life

You can hold, you can mend
You can heal, you can break
I hold cause something etched this way

Father.. healer.. deliver me form broken love..
Stay here, closer.. let me hear your voice of love..
Savior, Redeemer.. bring me to this place of peace..
Jesus, garden.. my broken heart is so in need

Wouldn't you like to know?

What people might think of you sometimes? Whats going threw their heads when they talk to you? haha! you can only imagine. When you do something incredibly stupid, all you think about, is what people might have thought about it. Sometimes though, its safer to let them think their way, so you don't have to change yours (way of acting). I was just thinking.. Isn't funny how we try and guess what they might be thinking, but most people (I know anway) don't exactly find the faults you find in yourself. idk its weird. haha! its funny how that works. We look at ourselves as ugly, or stupid sometimes, but not everybody can see the same way you do, because you can see your flaws, they can't (at least don't try to).

tehe :) 2 words of the day,
-Beautiful You-
your beautiful.

You just don't know it yet. <3
-Mich

oh no..

Cut my hair!! :D ahhhhh! I <3 it :)

wow ok were do i start...
you know when God gives u trials, and most of the time you fail? Hahaha!
idk but I think i won B-D hahaha! ;)
"I eat nazi zombies for breakfast" ;D omg inside jokes are fun. xD
but omg I have a situation.. (I know random)
now things are screwd up again...:(
ughh.. tell u more later

-mich