Gonna Rock it.

I'm back. Armed and Ready.
Lets show them what your really made of. :) <3

-mICH

Second Glance, Counts First.

I am doing homework. At 10:30 at night. And I have immeasurable Joy!
To fill you in on a little secret of mine; I'm a perfectionist. Everything I do must be (to the best of my ability) perfect. Personally, I think it can be kind of a burden at times.. but it modivates me to reach for the 100% with school. But I procrastinated, and now everything is backed up on me. How the heck am I positive about that?? Well I need to look at the bright side of whatever this thing is, I call, my life.
I am living and breathing the very day that the lord hath made. The beauty, never ceasing, all around me.
I have a mom who loves me (Even if she can be a bit.. you know.. patronizing), as much as I love her.
Same for father! and brother.. my brother's proud of me. Actually proud of me, after so many years..
He loves me as a sister rather then stranger. haha! as odd as that is.
My family's putting back the pieces again.
Were finally more bound then we have been for so many years of our lives.
Thank you God. For answering my prayers, and lifting up this beautiful little family you've given me.
We haven't been perfect, but the mere fact that my tears are growing thinner,
and my family isn't the cause of my miseries anymore; is a real blessing.
All I've done is complain. Thats all I've ever done! I've looked at the blessings in life,
and not even giving them a second glance. And now that I see them..
What can I do to repay you for such kindness?
Do everything. All the duties that the You entitled to me. willingly with pure joy.
Now that Father.. I will do gladly. <3
thank you for what you've done..

Love, your daughter,
-Michelle


-mICH

Where you move.

ironic.. how when people tell me I have joy..
I currently have tears streaming down my face.
When everyone else walks out on me,
When people think I'm a faliure.
God whispers back," Your wrong! because
you don't know my little girl, like I do."
Hes like the most beautiful mom, who cheers
you on, and tells you,"keep working at it sweetie, your doing great!"
when your the only one failing in dance class.
A dad cheering on his son on a football team, telling him to
"get back in the game son, I know you can do this!!"
With a gentle..and beautiful smile on his face.
Lord you are my support. You are my foundation. My strength..
Where you go, I'll go. where you'll stay, I'll stay.
Where you move, I'll move; I will follow you.

-mICH

Lead me.

Oh my gosh.. Man, God forgive me! All these people that you have put in my life, who need to hear you, and I've been totally ignoring them. Make this life less about me.. and more about you. I don't know if anyone saw, "To Save A Life" but that movie is convicting, isn't it?! Don't let this world pass you by, but but help those that are passing through, not just the people you know, but the people you don't! you may never know it.. but God may just use you.. to completely change someones life. All it takes is for you to trust him, and let him work.
Man God, I've really screwed up! I've really messed up! I need to trust in you.
I have to stop thinking that this world is about me.. because it never was.
lead me with strong hands Lord, and guide me, where I'm needed most.
and also God, I pray for you to give my other brothers and sisters and Christ,
to do likewise, and have a passion to serve you, and you alone.
In your beautiful name I pray,
Amen.

"You can do this."

This is a message to those who are like me. And don't think they will amount to anything.
Those that feel like a faliure.. and that nothing they do will ever be good enough.
Jesus says this to you..
"Don't give up.. for I know you can do this. For I believe in you. Even when the
whole world thinks you've a failer, don't give up hope. I had given you these gifts,
and talents, because I knew you could use them. Use what I have given you to the
glory of your God, so that His name my be blessed. So don't give up.. for I Am with you."
Amen to those beautiful, and powerful words!
How great is our God!
-sigh-.. I am so greatful God doesn't give up on me..
Even in the times I give up on him.
So to those are struggling right now, know that your not alone.
Because He is with you. And he.. absolutely loves you.

p.s (those are words that God had whispered into my hurting heart when I needed it.
Soo... no im not plagurising. lol[:)

-mICH

Sound Turns to Song.

Whenever I go back to everything.. everything that has happened in my life; all my struggles, writings, joys, victories, faliures, trials, and above all, my relationship with my Father in heaven, I see how the spirit works..
idk If anyone noticed this, but none of what I write, is even me anymore. (if you know me anyway)
Also, another thing I noticed, is that there are some times where I'll start encouraging myself. [?]
Weird? no. God? yes!
Haha! Because its not me. Its The Spirit lifting me up.
The Holy Spirit is such a powerful being. Hes God after all.
Once He gets a hold of me, everything I write, do, or say, because entirely his doing.
Its then that I realized I can't write, say, or do, anything profound on my own!
I really wish I could! matter of fact, I've even tried!
Nope. Doesn't work so well. :)
Haha! you might be wondering how I know whether its me or not.
Well its not me;
when the like, turns to love.
When the sound, turns to song. When the hate, turns to compassion.
and above all, when the weakness, turns to Strength.
Its whether or not I want to surrender entirely to my King.
Its time for me to finally let go.. and just let God.

-mICH

How are humble people, humble?!

-sigh-.. so how can people be humble? I mean.. how do they not get even a little prideful sometimes?? I get bitterly jealous of them, because I don't understand it. Like, when you get yelled at, or get corrected at.. oh idunno! Something! how on earth are they able to "humbly" say: "I understand. I totally messed up, I'm so so sorry." I envy that!
lol, but something like that pretty much happened to me today. It was a kind of overwhelming humblness. Actually, how about this: what does "humblness" even mean?? Dictionary.com said:

–noun "the quality or condition of being humble; modest opinion or estimate of one's own importance, rank, etc."
 
or hey, check out this:
—Synonyms

lowliness, meekness, submissiveness.

doesn't it send a little prick in the back of your neck?? haha! it sure does for me!

and its antonym?? -Pride.

As we hate to admit it. Yes. We are prideful to the core. Sinful, "puffy," people. It sure gets to you eh?? like for me, I know theres a problem with that.. I just don't feel like fixing it. You know what I'm saying?
Its no fun being told your wrong, under any circumstances; or maybe! even just being plain, flat out, pride.. although inside you know one thing (and I totally speak for myself) Your not. and you can't do anything alone. You yourself are weak, and you need God every step of the way.

You know, the majority of us struggle with pride in some kinda way, at some point. But when is it time to admit your a failure, your a sinner, and you were a serious screw up to someone, or better yet, God?
Three Word.
Submission. Loweliess. &Meekness.
How can you obtain that? By giving up yourself.. and laying down your life saying,"God do what you want with me.. because I can't do this one my own, and I need you."
Gosh, the moment I truely said that, I FELT AMAZING! wow! the Holy Spirit is quite the uplifter! :)
How amazing my God is: In admiting your weakness, his power is made strong.
2 Corithians 12:9-10
9And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness " Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 10Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

just thought I'd share this with everyone, because thats what God taught me today.. :)
hope it helped you, just as it helped me<3

-mICH