Haha! to this day I still continue to wonder, how God is so long suffering with me.
He has hope for me (probably because he already knows my life), and he believes in me.
So if he believes this, how come sometimes I don't believe in myself?
have you ever been caught in that kind of situation? ughh, it stinks don't it? :)
Really this entire experience of me being broken and unable before Christ, has
been such an eye opener. I mean for the past few months, all I've wanted is peace,
and never knew how to obtain it. It almost feels like putting yourself in a box
for years; and enclose yourself in fear, insecurity, and doubt. Your skin is pale
white from the completely lack of sunlight (Jesus) in your life.
Anyhow, its not a fun experience.
But coming out of it is like breathing again!
its like being born again! Jesus is pumping through my veins. :)
I know this defintately isn't over..
but neither am I.
So I will continue to fight. With Jesus by my side.
Closing this chapter of my life, has really taught me to trust in God,
and let the Holy Spirit guide me! Open my heart and mind
to his words! Not letting the bonds of fear, insecurity, or doubt, bind me!
But one thing above all that I've learned for sure.. Is that, I can't do this on my own.
-mICH
